If I was a raindrop you'd be my thunderstorm, its cold so surround me with rain clouds to keep me warm.

I really don't understand why people feel the need to be such assholes to each other. They pretend everything is sunshine and rainbows, then the second you turn away they bash you and rip you to shreds. DO NOT UNDERSTAND.

And when someone is in a situation, which effects their schooling. We all understand, but seriously? when you are so greatly fucked over you get a little upset and just stop caring.

If you are having family problems and drop the program for personal reasons, that is YOUR choice. Not anyone elses' and that is not what I'm arguing. However, it does not take very much energy for you to send a little text or Facebook message just informing your group that you've fucked off and won't be there to help them through these major assignments. -_______-

School ends in a week. For fuck sakes i CANNOT wait. I hate all these dummies i've been stuck with.

and I got a new Hamster! SOO cute. :D

Toronto Saturday with my bf :) <3

Hartwyn Urbanski, I love you.

I'm sitting here in the SA

and my mind is running a million miles a minute. I have a test in 32 minutes and I can't bring myself to study for it. The stress that overwhelms my body right now is taking over. I'm not sure where to start, what to do, to relieve myself from all of this. I find myself clingy to the last few people around me that don't irritate the fuck out of me.

Yesterday, I was sitting doing some homework and I realized how much I miss Sarah, like actually legit miss her! Before all this crap went down with everyone stabbing each other in the back and disrespecting everyone Sarah and I had gotten really close. We share a lot of common interests and she's always there for me. Even though a few events took place where she betrayed my trust I still find myself trusting Sarah more than anyone. When being confronted by me with questions she was actually honest. She told me the truth no matter how much it would hurt me and that I'm so proud of. In the end telling the truth made it so much better than it would have if she had lied to me. I guess my mom was right, telling the truth is always the best option.

I sat with her in the cafe today, and we both got pretty teary over the subject. It's nice to know that she misses me, as much as I miss her. I know this summer is going to be very busy for both of us, but I hope we can both make time for each other and keep this friendship building and growing.

Which reminds me, I've met a lot of new people this year and there is 4 that stick in my mind that I'm very glad to have met. Sarah being the number one! Jason is also another person I've been missing like crazy. Jason and I share the creative artsy vibe I've been searching for in a friend for a really long time. It actually makes me so happy that I have someone to share that with. No one else stays up with me at night helping me make ads for hair products, which Jason we got a 9/10 on. :)

The next is someone who I met previously but got a lot closer to as the year went on, Hartwyn. I've written about him before so there isn't much to say but he has defiantly made this stressful time a lot easier on myself. We go bowling and watch movies and take naps and just keep my mind busy so I don't have to stress over all this crap all the time. My mind works in a strange way, I stress over everything, every little detail must be executed perfectly or I stress until it is solved. That drives my friends nuts and I know that. I try to hide it, I bottle it up inside which just leads to me, hurting myself.

The last person is Robin, when I hang out with Robin I get this overwhelming sense that he cares. Like when you start to tell a story and then people get side-tracked from you, he ALWAYS listens to the very end. It's a nice feeling. I Miss him too :C

First time I've written in my blog for a long time, lots to talk about. However- Class calls and so does work -___-

I think I might blog again when I get home. I missed it!

I'm so confused.

I miss her, I really really do. No matter how much I was hurt and what happened I friggen' miss her.
There is a photo of us in a frame on my desk, I can't stand to replace it. It still sits there watching over me, reminding me how happy we USE to be. Lame lame lame lame lame.

Anyways,

To Hartwyn:
I really need to say thankyou, these past two weeks have actually been soo fun! I'm going against what my friends use to say and just doing what I want to do. And it's mostly thanks to you. :D

I love you babe!

oh and.
SCHOOL IS ALMOST OVER!!
I talked to a second year girl today, and she gave me some REALLY good advice. :) I'm glad that some people are finally noticing my talents and skills. I'm a really good student, and No one sees it ! :C

lame lame lame.

Anyways off to Prost like always <3 :)

I remember that day we decided a boy would never come between us.
Turns out when your little you have no idea what faces you ahead in life.
I wish I could go back to the simple days, where arguments were over which power-ranger you were going to be at recess
, and who you wanted to share the paints with.

Everyone says they won't choose sides, but thats crap. Complete crap.
We all have our own opinions and we can't help but choose a side.
And thats perfectly fine, I will never ask anyone to choose my side in any situation.
I respect everyone for their own opinion, but I do however want the talking to stop.
Don't like me? that's fine.
Don't want to talk to me? That's fine too.
No one is forcing you to talk to anyone, just stop it all and grow up.
Until then, My basement is where i reside. Hiding from all the immature idiots out in the world.

Maybe someday I will crawl from within these walls and allow myself to trust and be-friend once again.

Alice In Wonderland

Saw it today with Jason in 3D, despite the annoying child sitting beside me who; Fell asleep, began snoring(rather loudly), basically shit her pants and then proceeded to talk through the rest of the movie. I really enjoyed it, at first the 3D made me feel kinda sick :C, and it really got on my nerves; when I'm watching a movie I like to look around at the background and other things, but 3D movies force your eyes to focus on certain things- annoying!

But any-who the movie really inspired me, as I was watching the colours, the movements the scenes, everything was creating thousands of ideas for paintings and poetry in my head! It was incredible, its like the painters block I've had for months just broke like a dam and all the ideas came flooding forward! Most amazing feeling in the world.

I also made an investment today, $282.49 on a pair of headphones. I could hear my VISA crying in pain as I paid for it. Totally worth it though. I've been having ear-gasims for hours! They are like heaven.

Been spending lots of Time with Wyn. :3 When we hangout, doesn't matter what we are doing my mind goes blank, everything disappears. Driving, listening to music. Sneaking into Prost to see him or hanging out in the Pro shop. It doesn't matter what it is, I love it. :)

Oh, Dina, Tiff, Wyn, Jason and Amanda thank you all so much. C:

Off to do some homework then gone to dream land!

xo.

And I can feel all these emotions swimming, emerging

I'm falling,

Constantly falling.

I reach out for you but you're not there.

You've gone, moved on and forgotten about me.

I'll remain falling until someone comes to save me, to pull me back to reality.

Heyo!

This blog will remain a secret :) Only 2 people are going to be told about it, and if others stumble across it then so be it.

Anywho,

For those of you reading this that don't know me, My name is Robin and lately I quit life?

I wish that was an option.

There is a few things I'd like to add to life, a few being:

-Backspace/Delete key

-Game Over Button

Anywho,

I've done some spring cleaning in my life, Pushing the old out and opening up the windows letting the fresh clean air in!

Jason and Hartwyn,

Thankyou! :3

Daily post will be here soon, Just need ideas first.